I must add that Martha, the night before, I had not seen the show, probably not informed that it was free, preferring that the embrace of Morpheus of my words.
But here is a quick draws. In fact he had spent most of the time necessary to reconstruct my number, giving me the opportunity to ask what he thought of my act. But when he returned the phone to ring I waited for the second ring. On occasion we should not show impatience. Again she was obviously, and trivially began the conversation. A conversation as I have almost never had. It was pleasant to say the least. Everything I did was to let the cynicism most of which I was able to soak the phone cord that united us, responding when more coldly and ironically I could to any claim. I have never felt more seconded by someone. My dog \u200b\u200bhad the misfortune of passing too close while talking, I was so cold that one leg was frozen. My mother put it in the oven to warm, and never saw him again. But the roast that night was really good. Suede, I said my mother, and I had to believe her, I had never tasted the chamois. But saving the gist of conversation at the end the result was simple: in one way or another I did not want to have anything to do with them, and were warmly invited to not be more alive to me. I left the phone and shut myself in the room, I finished the fuel to keep cold and aloof, now was the time of suffering.
are a type of speech, I will. If nothing else, outwardly proud to indecent levels, to the point that I cut off a hand to prove to someone that if I say something I do it. And this was my strength within eighteen months. Not very hard to admit that I suffered the separation, especially since after a year of hanging out with them I had to return to establish old relationships broken without too much hesitation. I did not know how to behave, because, to avoid unpleasant encounters, I had to widen the circle of people who no longer go to all the friends I had in common with the girls. To be honest, sometimes we went out again, with those friends, after the Sunday times that slowly thickens over time, but carefully avoided any occasion where I may encounter, and this sometimes happens if I stood on the sidelines and avoid having contact with anyone. I admit that this meant I was myself the first to suffer the private situation of the fun in their presence, but my pride was worth much more than an entertaining evening.
If nothing else, after treatment Ethyl I did, I got to let my body detox at least in part. That 's what my doctor says, at least, according to which everything that could have resulted in some drinking uncertainty in the operation of certain parts of my digestive system. I do not know what has been invented. But it's the same excuses that the State used against smokers to stop them. Must all be jealous because when it's up to me so I'll just, I know because I've heard from many smokers and alcoholics, and if what they say in so many can not be true. They are almost all dead, those many, it is true, and no old age, but at least we believed them.
However a year and a half passed without too many complications, at least not compared to what could have been. I had now gained the assurance of being selfless to renew a bond so old, and had rebuilt a particular love life outside the group that at least gave me some satisfaction. It was a matter of chance encounters with partners never fixed, with whom relations had in fact when we had nothing else to do. It just came out, we spoke even less, but there was no sex. Sex and occasionally end in itself, not be the best for a man, but it's better than nothing. And then I'm pretty sure I'm not made for a stable couple relationship, I am always tired too fast of a woman. But that's another story.
I said that a year and a half had passed by now. I shamelessly deceiving, trying every possible opportunity to see at least Martha but then ignore it as much as I could. He was a sadistic game with myself, but I think, on the other hand, I really only wanted it to her to reopen a dialogue. I constantly pretend to have an attitude of proud and haughty, and in particular led them not to speak to a kind of awe that gives it with my own attitude. Then when I found myself alone, I cried on the fear that in reality she does not care about me. I have not figured out how things actually were, but the wall was torn down, to my slight relief.
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